Waiting. It is amazing how hard it is to just wait. Plans can be made and executed. Presentations can be given and commented on. Applications submitted. Deadlines met. Yet the inevitable wait to hear whether all your hopes, dreams, hard work and effort has paid off? ---That takes courage, patience and immense self confidence.
It is hard to expose yourself to the possibility of failure, to know that everything is completely in another persons hands and there is nothing you can do about it. I hate feeling vulnerable, the rising expectations of success and the intense indecisiveness that involves not knowing your future.
It gives me strength to know that all my friends are waiting with me. To celebrate if I get it or to shrug it off and cheer me up if things don't go according to my expectations. I know that I am lucky that people care, share my triumphs and help me recover from the setbacks. I know my friends are fiercely loyal and believe in me (at times more than I believe in myself). They give me the courage I need (to hang on and expect a positive answer), provide a distraction (so that I don't stare at my phone and constantly check my emails), the confidence that I did my best and the love I need to get through waiting. Thank you :)
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